I'm stuck and I can't get out. [vent/rant]

I seem to be stuck in an artistic hole that I can't seem to climb out of. I have stagnated at a skill level I am not please with and it is causing me a great amount of stress and depression. I am stuck in my normal ways. I am stuck doing things the same way I have been for years. Drawing figures the same way, digital coloring the same way. Just everything still the same as when I was in high school. I know this because their are things I drew in High School I would still consider some of my best work. And that is NOT OK! Not for me anyway. All of my art is suffering for this. My school work, my personal work, everything. And their are not marketable skills. I have so many classmates that blow me out of the water. So many people who are so much younger then me doing so much better. I need to step it up. I know to find something that it me. I need to find a brand new way of expressing what I want to express. I need to draw, I need to animate, I need to code. 

Why and I posting this? As a warning and a heads up. I'm going to start experimenting. And my experiments don't get posted. There is going to much longer gaps between posts. I was trying to post everyday, but that hasn't happened. It doesn't matter now. 
And with this FUSION REQUESTS ARE CLOSED If you are not on the list already, I'm not taking anymore until I feel like I am over this patch of self doubt. I will still be on DA. It's an addiction that I can't shake myself of. Roleplays will continue being slow. Thank you to everyone who puts up with me while role playing. I am very VERY slow. 

I am not going to beat around the bush, I am not in a good mental state and I do want attention. I want people to tell me I'm good and that they like my work. Who doesn't want that? But I am also very serious about everything I said above. I need to try new things and hit this learning curve hard. It's going to be a lot of tutorials and a lot of copying, which I why it will not be posted here. If people are actually interested, I might post things to tumblr, but I highly doubt that anyone cares.  Because the other reason I have decided this, is because I am realizing that most people who are "watching" me and inactive accounts or you are only here for the Steven Universe fan art. And I need to be better then that. I want you guys to fall in love with my stand alone characters. I want to be known for more then free fusions. I want to be a professional artist with a reputation for making good art. I will be graduating college next spring, and I want to be ready to be an artist in the real world. And I have a lot of catching up to do.